PHEW... finally the camps are over. the last two weeks was suuupppeeeerrr stress, with all the plannings and tests going on. been sleeping at 2am+ every night mans. oh well, glad its over lar eh. guess the camp went quite successfully... although there was a few cock up here and there within the committee but it was'nt obvious to the rest. i guess what miss tai said was right, running two camps at the same time wasnt such a good plan. tried working on both during the 1st day but by that night realised i was too shagged to carry on so had to leave the orientation camp to the rest of the committee while i trained with the fdcom squad. but hey, the camps turned out great yea! a big thanks to sarah and the rest of the committee, you guys did a really great job! (: been doing alot of thinking and reflection lately... especially after having heard what the YOs hafta say... fdcom, we seriously hafta train to the fullest with our remaining 8 trainings left to the competition. i always tried making trainings fun for all of us, as i strongly believed its the process that counts as compared to the results. i wish for all of us to end off with unforgettable memories that we'll all learn to cherish and never forget. i really hate myself when i hafta punish the scold the squad... its the same feeling seeing someone you love so much suffering course of yourself. i've always let you guys have lotsa privillages as compared to the rest as i really want you to feel special... coming to the rc room after sch, leaving your stuff dere, buying drinks for yall, the way i talk 2 yall, printing the fdcom jersey and all the other sacrifices that the seniors made for the squad, its not for nothing... c'mon guys, like i've always told ya, we're the best of the best we have in the unit, if we don't make it, no one else will. 8 more trainings are all we have left. guess yall didnt really feel the impact when miss tai cried, but i sure did. i dunno why, but i started crying too while yall were having your nap. i was touched that she actually cared so much for us... compared to other YOs i know who don't care much about their unit... i realised how much support we were getting from the unit, but just that we were too blind to appreciate, thinking about our own selfish desires... we train, we suffer, and we win. not for ourselves, but for our unit. i've been putting my faith to the test these few days... especially when the skies were dark and it started raining on friday. yuanhao came and asked me to get ready to execute contingency plan for campfire cos they believed it the rain wudnt stop. i told him a straight NO. i was sure the rain would clear by then, and i was glad it really did. saturday morning, hidayat called me and asked if i wanted to be the reserve commander for the squad... it was really a tough decision for me cos if i were to be the reserved commander, i wudnt get a chance to be march with the squad, and its kinda too late to get a replacement for me. in the end, i told him we'll go ahead without a reserve commander. im taking a very very big risk on this. if anything was to happen to hidayat, the squad would hafta withdraw. once again, im leaving this to god and i have full confidence everything will go just fine. so the rest of you guys out dere, pls continue your prayers for us. overall i guess we all enjoyed ourselves during the camp ehh... the games, campfire, confidence walk which i bet the "couples" all made used of. basket. as well as the late nite "talk cock" sessions... and of course my favourite PT. lolx. still feeling kinda shagged and whole body aching... lucky its chinese new yr this week and i can get my rest. my parents are leaving for china on the 10th to 20th feb so i'll have my freedom for the while. ha ha ha.